A Fasting Testimony
March 24, 2021 | by: Becky Livingston | 1 Comments
Posted in: Prayer
Looking back, I believe that God began preparing me for this fast about a year and a half ago. I think it was early 2019 while doing the study “4 Chair Discipling” that God revealed that I held a false belief concerning how Christ performed miracles during His life on Earth. I believed that He did them as God and not in His humanity, dependent upon the Holy Spirit.
Realizing that Christ submitted fully and completely to His Father’s will and said and did only what the Father told Him to do while human but empowered by the Holy Spirit. I asked God to show me what other false beliefs I held in my heart that were stopping me from living a life empowered by the Holy Spirit. Jesus says in John 14:12 that “anyone who believes in me will do the same works I have done, and even greater works.” I wanted this but saw no evidence of this in my life and I was struggling.
During 2020 God started revealing that I was being self-deceived in several areas of my life. Anger and self-righteousness were hindering me from seeing what God wanted to show me. I was praying for changes in relationships, especially with my husband concerning the way we handled our finances.
When Pastor Chris mentioned the 3-day fast, I had no plans of taking part in it. However, while reading the Book of Joel I read 2:12. “Return to me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping and with mourning; rend your heart and not your garments.” “Blow the trumpet in Zion; consecrate a fast.” (Joel 2:15) I felt that the Lord was telling me to do this and I called Chris and joined in.
I have fasted before-sometimes on Thursdays and at other times for cleansing. I struggle with making the fast about drawing closer to God and hearing from Him and not about losing weight. I had no idea what to expect this time but wanted a break through, answer to prayers and a changed heart. I want to live empowered by the Holy Spirit. The days were relatively easy for me because I was working but at night I really had to focus on the Lord. The discipline was good for me. I was asking for wisdom, for Him to reveal what it was that was in my heart that was not allowing a change in my relationships. Then the fast was over and still had no revelations.
I cried out to the Lord. Your great promise to those who seek the Lord is that he will be found. “If you seek him, he will be found by you.” (1Chronicles 28:9) Soon after, April gave her message on submission and God answered my prayers. For 39 years I had fought with Art over our finances. I had not submitted to his leadership in this area and in turn was not submitting to God’s authority and His plan of hierarchy. It all started to become clear to me. I can’t live empowered by the Holy Spirit if I refuse to submit to the will and authority of the Father. I confessed this sin to God and went home and asked Art to forgive me.
It has been amazingly freeing and Art and I are working together now. Praise God!